This is going to be a means for me to monitor my progress of the detox program I am about to embark upon. After the age of 13, high school became responsible for my lack of physical activity. High school itself lead to many emotional issues which in turn lead me on a major downward spiral when it came to what I was eating and more importantly, why I was eating all the wrong foods. Although I had a few periods where I was exercising consistently and seeing pretty good results, time and time again I have ended up in a slump of unhealthy eating (microwave meals, or takeouts when working late, and even unhealthy choices when shopping) and little, almost no physical activity.
Don't get me wrong, I do know what I should be eating and I know I should be exercising. I'm regular girl who actually does care about her body and how she looks, as well as what goes into - yet somehow, I just don't seem to get it right. When I was young, my mother made sure I was involved in a lot of different activities - including swimming in a club on an almost daily basis, as well as various styles of dancing - from ballet and national to greek! But somehow this all changed when I got to high school.... music was now my number one priority as this was going to form two major final subjects, and instead of doing phys ed with the rest of my classmates - I sat with the four other music students doing theory or music history. If I think about it now, only one of the girls in music had a good level of fitness - but that was because she was in the boarding house and often played hockey and kept herself physically active in the afternoons at school. Me, on the other hand, well I had choir twice a week in the afternoons - and the rest of the time was spent at either piano or guitar lessons.
I was never very happy at high school, and there were so many temptations when it came to sweet yummy food. Girls would bring cakes or sell sweets from their lockers, and the tuck shop would be packed... not to mention the vending machine! Soon I was eating 1 or 2 chocolates a day, and not before long I had gone from being a slim and slender 13 year-old to a rather chunky 15 year-old.... and now here I am at 24 absolutely miserable with my body. I reckon I'm 10 to 15 kg overweight... I'm 5'9" and weigh a hefty 79 kg. My goal weight is somewhere around 63-65 kg, but that seems like an impossible dream the way I feel at the moment. I look around at the young girls who come to our work for castings (I work at a tv production company), and I am so envious of their lean, slim physiques. I don't want to feel embarassed when I walk past them to get a cup of tea - even though I'm sure they're not, it feels like they're judging me, thinking to themselves "Geez, what must she be eating to look like that!" Also, I want to be able to go to a clothing shop and pick something out in a size 10 or 12 and know that it will just fit! Maybe not perfectly, but at least I want to be able to get my legs in a pair of jeans! I can't tell you how many times I've been shopping, and I've taken 4 or 5 pairs of jeans into the fitting room only to discover that they don't pull up past my knees - so depressing! You walk out feeling empty...
So that's my story... and basically I want to motivate myself to eat properly, drink enough water, exercise and climb out of this fat uncomfortable shell I'm living in. I'm starting off this detox with a session of colonic hydrotherapy (never had this before!) to flush my system of toxins (or at least a few!), and will possibly have a few follow up appointments to assist in the weight loss progress. If I can motivate a few people on the way to do the same, that would be wonderful - if I can educate you by telling you my experiences and finding out things that work for me, then that's great too. Your support and guidance would be appreciated, for any of you reading this who have gone through a similar phase in your lives. But most importantly, I'd like this to be a stepping stone to a new life for me!
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